Transitioning spiritually

Spiritual transitions can be integral to all of these life changes and can also be equally painful. In a spiritual transition, you may feel pushed beyond your innerstanding. You may experience a “dark night of the soul” in which practice of shadow work comes to play. as you are forced to let go of some cherished belief or idea in order to move to a higher understanding or awareness of self. The word transition can be defined as the process or a period of changing from one state or condition to another. It can also be defined as passage, crossing, or transfer. As Ecclesiastes 3: 1 says, “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens.” As i myself am aware of going through this transition I am not afraid yet I hold myself back from coming out. Not Sexuality, more so spiritually. I realize when I go deep I come in contact with those who've passed on and transitioned into the other side of the veil. "Know we are not to far apart" I am the silence of many rooms feeling out energies. And not wanting to take in to much especially if it's not mine to have or for my highest greatest good. I have not come to fullness at this time. I am still learning. Funny I meet people and am very shy I just want to own who I am and I am becoming I am a child of the most Divine Mother and Father sacred Spirit. I'm doing my best to figure if my gifts of consciousness will stop me from enjoying my life and how can I shut off certain things and energies. I don't speak much people seem to not understanding me. And it's not my job to force anything. My job is to know my blessings what's pure what's holy and what I was Divinely gifted. I claim I would have my own unique way of unity. Well I don't want to say so much or seem in my ego. I release all shakles and am ready for pure love.